- S T A T U S -

hey, guys!

I'm here to report on my current status

just read on this post & u will know everything

so please don't ask what happened to me again

I won't answer the question

as it's quite tiring of repeating the same answer

relationship status : SINGLE

don't doubt your eyes, I'm single now

finally made up my mind to break up with him,

the guy whom I had been together for 2 years

felt really sad when I made this decision

but don't worry for me

remember?

I'm always a tough girl

always the one who give supports to my friends

giving them advice when they are confused in life

so I won't be sad for long period

as I know life still goes on no matter how

I always set a deadline for my negative emotions

that's why I'm smiling all times

he was part of my life, my family

we were sweet although we seldom met with each other

he is studying at Penang while I'm in KL

hardly meet up as we were busy for our study

this made us appreciating our relationship more

we shared happy & sad moments together

we may quarreled sometimes but that didn't affect anything

we teased each other always too

he cheered up my life & cared for me 

we tried to tolerate & accept with each other's weaknesses

I learnt to change myself since I knew I wouldn't be able to have him changed

he was kind of guy who got jealous easily

but I knew that was because he loved me

so I tried to stay distances from my male friends

I did try!

but.......

actually I wasn't happy when I did so

most of my friends know that I like to make new friends

& I get close with all my friends

he didn't like this at all & always compared himself with my friends

I didn't know he was serious or just kidding about this

but the fact was we quarreled for this quite often

when I asked for break up, he just thought that I wanted to escape from the problems

I knew my character wasn't good too

sometimes I acted like little kid as well

I got angry easily & showed no patience at all

but still, he chose to stay with me

try to think, who will be there to bear with my bad attitude?

of course my family, friends & the one who really loves me

but now, I've broke up with him

asking me why?

it's hard to mention in words

perhaps I'm getting greedy & having more expectation on him

seriously, I'm counting him in my future

I wish to get marry with him & have our babies

live together with him & his family

so automatically I measure him with stricter requirements

finding that he doesn't meet the qualification

or I should say he is not mature enough for me

an incident happened recently made me lost all confidence in him

felt unsecured to be with him

not only that, actually I found that both of us getting not so close like the past

conversation between us became less too

girls are sensitive & so am I

others may think that we are still sweet always

but I know.......

something is missing between us

finally I forced myself to face the truth that we are not suitable to be together

FOR MY HIM :

I know you agreed to break with me because u love me

just because of your love to me, u respect my decision

and u didn't try to change my mind

a big big thank for you

I know I'm not perfect for you so I hope that u can find a better companion soon

glad to see that you mentioned in your fb that u are happy with your single life

I guess that's true as u don't need to bear with my terrible attitude anymore

promise me that u will take good care of yourself, okie?

don't sleep late like what u always do

this act really bring serious consequences when u grow older

I admit that I still can't forget you completely in such short time

but I will try my best to do so & I believe I can do that

so don't worry for me

this song is dedicated specially to you, maybe it's a bit too fast now

but my words to u  is best described by this song

^ ^

few of my friends surprised me

instead of worrying me, they felt happy for me to go back to my single life

although I didn't say anything, but they knew me well

opps, I should say they KNOW me well

we may not be hanging out or meet up often,

but whenever I need them,

they are always there for me

is this what people called true friends?

how lucky am I to have them in my life

they warm up my life!

thanks God for giving me such precious gift

and thanks mummy for supporting me

she showed her support by not giving any opinion

just a sentence from her :

" No matter what decision u make,we will support you as long as u feel happy with that.

We love you. "

because of this sentence, I cried again on the bus when coming back to KL on Monday

family never talk much but they show their love with their action

♥

my tears make my bolster wet after this post is finished

but no worries since this is the last time I cry for him

I gonna enjoy my single life,

so beware of the new-born flirting queen :p