a nice post - 其实，我很累了 ♥

其实，我很累了

其实，一直没有人懂我。我习惯假装坚强，习惯了一个人面对所有…

我不知道自己到底想怎么样

Actually, I'm tired

Actually, no one knows me, I used to pretend as I'm strong, used to face everything alone

I dunno what I want actually

有时候

我可以很开心的和每个人说话，可以很放肆的；

可是却没有人知道，那不过是伪装，很刻意的伪装

我可以让自己很快乐很快乐，

可是却找不到快乐的源头，只是傻笑。

Sometimes

I can talk to everyone happily

But no one knows, that's just a MASK

I can make myself to be very happy

Yet I can't find the reason of happy, just smile in a stupid way

我不习惯把事和别人说，因为我不习惯别人用可怜的眼光看我。

其实，我很珍惜身边的人，只是生活的压力让我善于遗忘，把那些记忆通过通遗忘

我以为遗忘可以让自己快乐起来…

可是，我感觉到的却是更多的寂寞…

 I don't use to tell everything to others as I don't want them to look at me in a pity way

Actually. I appreciate everyone around me, It's just that the stress in life makes me forget, forget all the memories

I thought I can be happy by forgetting everything

But I get myself more loneliness after this

黑夜来袭，周围的空气很冷…

一个人坐在草地对着天空发呆…

也不知道自己脑子里在想什么…

怀念过去，仅此而已…

Night comes & the air surrounding is cool

Sitting on the ground alone

I dunno what am i thinking in my mind

Just thinking back the past, Just this

其实，我也很渴望有一个人能懂我；能走进我的心…

其实，我很累了，真的想放下所有…

可是现实的压力只能让我背着这些慢慢走…

Actually, I hope someone to understand me & walks in my heart

Actually, I'm tired & wanna let go of everything

But the stress in the reality makes me carry all these with my life

Part of the post that i read at FB

quite a nice one

as it reflects my mood now

and I believe many of us having the same situation

That's why many suicidal cases happening now

We have to pretend as we are nothing no matter how

just to avoid others looking down or sympathize us

Remember to smile no matter what happens ♥
(even though the smile is fake)

I admit I pass my life with different masks everyday when facing different people

Sometimes I do feel tired

But that's the way of living ♥