hey, guys!
I'm here to report on my current status
just read on this post & u will know everything
so please don't ask what happened to me again
I won't answer the question
as it's quite tiring of repeating the same answer
relationship status : SINGLE
don't doubt your eyes, I'm single now
finally made up my mind to break up with him,
the guy whom I had been together for 2 years
felt really sad when I made this decision
but don't worry for me
remember?
I'm always a tough girl
always the one who give supports to my friends
giving them advice when they are confused in life
so I won't be sad for long period
as I know life still goes on no matter how
I always set a deadline for my negative emotions
that's why I'm smiling all times
he was part of my life, my family
we were sweet although we seldom met with each other
he is studying at Penang while I'm in KL
hardly meet up as we were busy for our study
this made us appreciating our relationship more
we shared happy & sad moments together
we may quarreled sometimes but that didn't affect anything
we teased each other always too
he cheered up my life & cared for me
we tried to tolerate & accept with each other's weaknesses
I learnt to change myself since I knew I wouldn't be able to have him changed
he was kind of guy who got jealous easily
but I knew that was because he loved me
so I tried to stay distances from my male friends
I did try!
but.......
actually I wasn't happy when I did so
most of my friends know that I like to make new friends
& I get close with all my friends
he didn't like this at all & always compared himself with my friends
I didn't know he was serious or just kidding about this
but the fact was we quarreled for this quite often
when I asked for break up, he just thought that I wanted to escape from the problems
I knew my character wasn't good too
sometimes I acted like little kid as well
I got angry easily & showed no patience at all
but still, he chose to stay with me
try to think, who will be there to bear with my bad attitude?
of course my family, friends & the one who really loves me
but now, I've broke up with him
asking me why?
it's hard to mention in words
perhaps I'm getting greedy & having more expectation on him
seriously, I'm counting him in my future
I wish to get marry with him & have our babies
live together with him & his family
so automatically I measure him with stricter requirements
finding that he doesn't meet the qualification
or I should say he is not mature enough for me
an incident happened recently made me lost all confidence in him
felt unsecured to be with him
not only that, actually I found that both of us getting not so close like the past
conversation between us became less too
girls are sensitive & so am I
others may think that we are still sweet always
but I know.......
something is missing between us
finally I forced myself to face the truth that we are not suitable to be together
FOR MY HIM :
I know you agreed to break with me because u love me
just because of your love to me, u respect my decision
and u didn't try to change my mind
a big big thank for you
I know I'm not perfect for you so I hope that u can find a better companion soon
glad to see that you mentioned in your fb that u are happy with your single life
I guess that's true as u don't need to bear with my terrible attitude anymore
promise me that u will take good care of yourself, okie?
don't sleep late like what u always do
this act really bring serious consequences when u grow older
I admit that I still can't forget you completely in such short time
but I will try my best to do so & I believe I can do that
so don't worry for me
this song is dedicated specially to you, maybe it's a bit too fast now
but my words to u is best described by this song
^ ^
few of my friends surprised me
instead of worrying me, they felt happy for me to go back to my single life
although I didn't say anything, but they knew me well
opps, I should say they KNOW me well
we may not be hanging out or meet up often,
but whenever I need them,
they are always there for me
is this what people called true friends?
how lucky am I to have them in my life
they warm up my life!
thanks God for giving me such precious gift
and thanks mummy for supporting me
she showed her support by not giving any opinion
just a sentence from her :
" No matter what decision u make,we will support you as long as u feel happy with that.
We love you. "
because of this sentence, I cried again on the bus when coming back to KL on Monday
family never talk much but they show their love with their action
♥
my tears make my bolster wet after this post is finished
but no worries since this is the last time I cry for him
I gonna enjoy my single life,
so beware of the new-born flirting queen :p
