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02.02.12

2012-02-02T19:23:00.000+08:00

Not in the mood today :(

thought to discuss something with my mum but was scolded badly

I told her that I planned to learn about hairdressing

and just after I finished my sentence, she started to shout at me!

WTF >.<

she said I wasted 3 years to study about hotel management

yet I want to start with another one new thing I didn't learn before

come on, I just wanna learn new things.......

I still get salary although the amount is not that much

but she just............................

*sigh*

My 1st post in 2012

2012-01-31T21:31:00.000+08:00

It's the last day of Jan in 2012 and finally I'm back to my bloggie again

too many sad cases happened since Nov 2011,

so I chose to abandon my bloggie for quite some time

BUT now, everything settled!

CONGRATZ to myself for leaving all those annoying stuffs ❤

Rumors about me was quite bothering recently

The bitches & the sons of bitch seemed never get bored in talking bad about others

They enjoyed spreading untrue stories about me, especially that particular BITCH

SHIT! She pretended to be concerned about me but I just got to know that

she is the one keep stabbing me from my back!!!!

She said I had messy relationships with one of my ex-boyfriend's brother

but the fact was, the latest 4 ex-boyfriends of mine are the only boy at home

So I can just say that, Sibu people have great imagination to make up stories!

Not only that, sshe said my photos were cheap & hoped others to agree with her

She's really scary enough!!!! She's fake enough!!!!

And one thing was quite funny:

She SMS me last night to tell me that she was unhappy & sad

because of people saying bad words behind her =.=

kinda funny, right???!!!!

She asked me why famous people like us have to suffer from the rumors

STOP, she is the one who wants to be famous, not me!

I hide at home watching drama everyday if no one finds me out for tea

I don't go out to socialize everyday or make friends only with the rich

But at last I still consoled her & asked her not to care too much about what others said

YA, I admitted I'm a double-faced person too :p

Another bitch, ex-girlfriend of a friend of mine

She is the one who dumped my friend but she accused me for being the 3rd party between them!

HELL!!!!

I don't know whether there's problem with her brain or whatever reasons

She kept blaming others to ruin her relationship with my friend

and unluckily I'm the one who got the most shoots from her

Hey! If I really want to grab her boyfriend, I'd have sticking with him everyday!

but the fact was that I meet with him not more than 5 times within these 2 months

and everytime we met was for dinner purpose!!!!

I don't think my act of having dinner with my friend is wrong!

"倘若你身边有许多的是是非非，请不要直接怪罪别人…

试着想想你自己是不是有问题，所谓无风不起浪，好好检讨下自己吧！

别把自己的颜面丢在地上任人践踏，也丢了所有女生的脸！

做女生做到像你这样，也算够贱了！鄙视你，呸！！"

She wrote this to shoot me in Facebook

well, I have nothing to say about her post

I don't blame her for shooting me like this as others shoot me the same too

That's why I don't like to stay at the small place like here

People are getting too free and so they keep spreading rumors about others

Maybe I'm quite over sometimes, but I'm with my close friends

they don't mind & so do I

PEOPLE, just fuck off if u don't like my style

I didn't force u people to like me!

Another guy, truly the son of bitch

I don't know where he got my phone number

due to the polite issue, I replied him and chatted with him

but what happened at last was, he scolded me for being proud

for replying his messages late

for not going out with him

WTFFFFFFFFFF!!!!

it's chinese new year & I'm busy visiting friends!

what the point for me to keep replying his messages?!

he was not my boyfriend or close friend either!

I felt really pity for his parents to give birth of such brainless son!

These 3 persons really made me pissed off

but still I enjoyed my chinese new year because of other good friends

met with quite long lost friends this year & we did spend wonderful time together

for those who don't like me, just continue hating me if u wish so

I won't care or mind the words as there's still many friends who support me always

just a sentence for those who spread rumors about me

& I'm gonna write this in chinese as my English is not that good

"如果把我的名声弄臭可以让你们的自尊心好受一点，那我不介意让你们继续这样做 :p"

Just these much for today's post, I'm going for hair straightening tomorrow

I still live my life well no matter how :)

I'm Down

2011-11-08T11:21:00.000+08:00

Hi Nov, Hi bloggie, I'm here again to express my feeling

didn't know how to start this post actually, everything was in a mess!

I don't know what should I do, STAY or LEAVE? I don't know which position I'm at :(

I don't wanna cry alone every single night, everything seems changing a lot

...

give up to continue the post finally, tears dropping non stop >.<

I want my happy Vivi back!!!!!!!

SHIT MOOD!

2011-10-18T20:23:00.001+08:00

sorry for being rude but I just can't bear with that anymore

I need to express everything here or else I'll go crazy for sure

granny & auntie stayed at my place since Sunday night

and this started my panic life..

as you guys know, it's hard to communicate with old folks sometimes

I'm facing the same problem as well for these few days

not complaining my granny purposely but just to tell u guys about my feeling

I didn't actually like my granny much since I was still a child

I still respect her if she isn't too over in her acts

not having any choices, I've to do so as I don't wish her to say bad words about my mummy

my granny enjoys talking bad words behind others!

she even talked bad bout her own daughter in front of others which is actually unreal!

she loves only her 2nd & 3rd daughter but treats her 1st daughter like nobody

I just can't figure out what she is thinking in her mind

I knew that she did talk something bad about my mummy too

BUT I can tell u guys that, my mummy respects her a lot!

she treats granny like how she treats her own mother

but granny doesn't seem appreciating at all

I simply hate such kind of people much

and now is my auntie's turn, u know what she did?

I got fed up with her just now!

she said she didn't know the way to operate a DVD player!

WTH is that??????? She knows to use complicated programmes in computer,

but not knowing the way to operate a DVD player?!

she must be kidding!

guys, please tell me that she is just kidding with me >.<

I was busy-ing with my stuffs when the incident happened

mummy & bro were on-calling with daddy so NO CHOICE AGAIN

I'm the only one to help, I know it's just a simple task

I'm willing to help if she asks me to since she is my elders

but the reason was really too RIDICULOUS!

not going to write more since they won't change their attitude

so I'll just stop here & decide to keep quite

mummy gets so stressed whenever granny & 3rd auntie stay at our place

they will leave on Thurs & I just hope the time passes faster :(

New Hair New Mood ♥

2011-10-17T21:42:00.002+08:00

I had my hair cut this afternoon and this is my new hairstyle

kinda short, right? It's even shorter than the first time I cut my hair short last year

another try on short hairstyle & I love it really much!

thanks a lot to Allan for giving my "grass" a new life

just can't find a proper word to describe my mood now

but don't worry, it's positive

I'm having super good mood after the hair cut

Short Hair, love love :)

One month ♥

2011-10-16T23:16:00.000+08:00

one month one month

1016, I'm in super happy mood today :)

not going to tell more but I hope u guys can feel my happiness too

I celebrated this special day with my mummy instead of that "piggy"

went shopping for clothes & some groceries whole day long

felt really great when I found myself starting to shop like a wifey,

knowing how to choose for better vegetables & fruits,

buying only what is necessary,

instead of just buying snacks & those which I don't need them actually

I didn't waste my long holidays!
I used the time to gain more knowledge on daily life

THUMB UP for little hardworking girl

( I know I'm thick-faced sometimes :p )

I'm still SINGLE & AVAILABLE

come & grab me to be your cute wifey now :p

hohoho.......

Hi, Oct :)

2011-10-10T21:41:00.000+08:00

It's the 10th day of Oct & I'm here to say hello to my friends

sorry for abandoning my bloggie for quite a long time

there's no time for me to online too often as before

I've been busy hanging out everyday since I came back from KL

but no worries, I always remember to rest myself well

I'm fully-charged after hiding at home for 3 days

(felt guilty for telling lies to some friends & rejecting your dates)

I'm not robot, so I need some rest!

I'm available for dates after today :)

but please allow me to OFF for at least a day in a week

I should be enjoying myself, not torturing myself during my long holidays, right?

by the way, I would like to keep some friends updates with my latest status in Sibu :)

weight : keep gaining more & more

height : remaining the same

mood : keep changing but mostly I'm in happy mood

relationship : still single but always surrounding by the "flies" as usual

thinking : 30% mature 70% childish, prefer to think & act like little kid :p

just call or SMS me if anyone of you want to keep in touch with me

don't get angry if I reply late, I promise I'll try to reply in shortest time

that's all for the post tonight

stay tune for more new posts :)

S O R R Y , T H A N K S

2011-09-21T03:57:00.002+08:00

just can't find any suitable word to describe my mood now : (

I got so emotional recently, not a good sign!

perhaps it was caused by my menstrual cycle,

suffering from great pain at my stomach these few days

this is the introduction for the story which I wanted to tell next

so now, let's move the scene to Shinky's house

everyone was busy enjoying themselves with the game

I was one of them until I realized I got a little bit blur after consuming the alcoholic drinks

as I did promised that I wouldn't make myself drunk,

I stopped playing games & just had my rest aside

"people seemed to think negative easily when they were alone"

I strongly agreed with this statement since I was the same

started to cry when I thought about what I had done recently

my life was in a mess, it was also the same for my thinking!

I didn't know what & why I did all those thing

I knew that I was wrong but I just didn't wish to correct my mistakes

HOW TERRIBLE AM I!!!!

sorry to Berg for keep pestering u, but thank you too

for spending your time listening to me & giving advice to me

appreciated your words much!

give me some time, I'll try to change myself

but not much changes will be made as I think I'm already 80% perfect :p

wifey, thanks for your love & care

don't worry about me, I'm a strong girl

I won't let others to hurt me so easily

don't forget that I always love myself the most :)

I promise that I will think twice before I act, I won't hurt others as well

I know that I'm childish & stubborn sometimes
I know that I'm naughty too but just forgive me please
little girl is brainless quite often >.<
For those who are always loving me for who I am,

please allow me to thank all of you for your support

I might not be so perfect if compared with the others,

but I'm always perfect to be myself!

I LOVE MYSELF

I LOVE U GUYS TOO!

RESULT

2011-09-21T02:51:00.001+08:00

20/09 - The day I got my result!

it was really a long day for me while waiting for the result

as for the previous semesters, the result will normally reveal at 10am

yet, I waited until almost 3pm this semester

truly an torturing experience for me >.<

but the moment after I checked my result,

I WAS IN SUPER HIGH MOOD!!!!

I passed all my 5 papers, which meant that I'm officially GRADUATED :)

GREAT NEWS, wasn't it?

so congratulation to all my classmates & those who got good results

for those unlucky group, try to be more hardworking next time,

I know u all can do it! Keep it on, guys!

Thanks

2011-09-17T16:28:00.001+08:00

Sept has come to the half & yet I'm still lazy to update my bloggie >.<

I did have lots to write about but my laziness seems to stop me from that

okay, I know that I'm lazy but this can be forgiven, right?

I shouldn't stress myself too much since it's still my holiday

finding myself the cleverest when giving out all these nonsense & excuses

should really address myself with the title : Queen of Excuses :p

What makes me to update my bloggie today?

this post is specially written for Charles, to thank him for the night

I'm too shy to tell u all these words face to face,

so I choose to write it down here, a place where I can write whatever I want

the very first thing before I start to express the words from the bottom of my heart,

this is what I must say :

CHARLES, I LOVE U SO MUCH FOR BEING SUCH A LOVING FRIEND

I knew that I was quite weak these few days

I did know that starving harm my health but I feel guilty easily when I eat too much

resulted from that, I kept feeling dizzy & seemed to faint anytime

also suffering from having bad mood due to the lack of sleep

seriously, I didn't have a nice rest even for a single night during the holidays

the 1st thank : Thanks for forcing me out for the dinner last night

enjoyed the meal a lot with all your teases and jokes

the way u talked made me wanna pinch u but I just like your style

u are so real to be yourself!

the 2nd thank : Thanks for bringing me for the movie

u granted my wish of wanting to watch movie so badly recently

I'm glad I watched Johnny English Reborn with u

it was an unforgettable experience & memory, I swear I gonna miss it much

the 3rd thank : Thanks for playing Photo Hunt with me

u made my old memories coming back to me

a big big thank you for accompanying the childish girl for the game

of course I wouldn't forget to apologize for being so stubborn

I promised I will go for bowling with u the next time we meet

so please don't lose your patience to me

as u said, I'm still little girl

u should understand that little naughty girl always acts so stubbornly

the 4th thank : Thanks for spending your time with me

I knew that u were really tired, busy with your work and your new house

I was quite touched actually when u were willing to take me for the movie

the 5th thank : Thanks for making our first date so wonderful

it would surely be one of my precious memories in 2011

I do hope that we can meet again before I go back to Sibu on the 28th :)

it doesn't matter if you can't spare your time out

take care & all the best for your work

Day 1 of Trip with H4 (26/08/11)

2011-09-03T20:06:00.001+08:00

just finished the 1st post for today & it's time to update about my trip

so contented now after feeding myself with a plate of black pepper fried rice

I think I'm able to update for the 1st day of the trip :)

Day 1 :

finished my last paper on this day

OT5 started our journey to Malacca straight after that

but of course we wouldn't forget to cure our stomach before that

went for "yong tau fu" at Ampang for our brunch

missed the taste really much as I didn't eat it for quite some time

these were the items we ordered

had a really full meal as the portion was quite much

seriously loved the feeling to dine with them even it was a simple one

it gave me the feel of a family, just as if I was dining with my siblings

felt so sleepy during the journey as I was really tired

didn't sleep well the previous night because of the exam

it started to rain so heavily on the halfway

still managed to snap a photo of the raining view before I fell asleep

we finally reached at Malacca 2 hours++ later

headed to the hotel to unload our luggage before starting our activities

1st station - Coconut Milk Shake

went for this to refresh ourselves after the tiring journey, especially my beloved wifey

the milk shake gave nice smell & I would say it is one of my favourite drink since then

spent some time chatting there before we left

discussing about where to go for our next station & also the plans at night

yeah, here we came! - the river cruise a.k.a. Big Longkang Cruise

the strong wind made my hair so messy but I still looked great :p

took a lot of photos of the buildings along the river while on the cruise

loved the scenery at Malacca really much

how nice it would be if I could find something similar at Sarawak >.<

SATAY CELUP

is a must to try if u ever travel to Malacca

lots of ingredients to be chosen as preferred

don't u feel that it is quite similar with steamboat?

personally like this much as I think it s the best activity for gathering

try to imagine:

a group of besties sitting together, chit chatting while enjoying the food

sounds great, right?

just straight after we finished our satay celup

we continued to try on the food again

the chicken wings there tasted so different!

could really feel the taste of barbeque,

unlike the normal chicken wings I normally had

we did try on the fried oyster too,

it tasted slightly different from the one I tried in KL

how to say?

maybe it was because of the sauce

not really know how to describe in words

rushed back to the hotel to take our bath next

yup, we RUSHED!

time always flied like rocket when we were enjoying

I didn't even make up properly >.<

just went out with a simple base & coloured eyebrow with lens

everything could be so simple when running out of time

sent dai lou back to his uncle's house to bathe himself after we had done

got to know his cousie & she joined our activities after that

to make everything convenient, she fetched us

1 car was more than enough actually

we went to the Jonker Walk, a place similar to the Petaling Street in KL

bought some accesorries to match my cloth

and of course I did buy the hats

love Malacca so much for the cheap hats

we then went to Pure Bar for relaxing

the live band there was simple awesome

enjoyed a lot since that was the 1st night life with OT5

hmmm, went to have some dim sum after that

all of them tasted nice, especially the sticky rice chicken

really enjoyed the food much!

a big big "thank u" to dai lou's cousie for treating us the meal

& also fetching us back to our hotel :)

A day with the couple :)

2011-09-03T20:04:00.000+08:00

went to Neway, Times Square to sing-K with the couple ( Boon & Jojo ) yesterday

since it was still holiday, there were crowds everywhere

headed to Sushi King for our lunch & found out that it was full-housed

but we were lucky to be seated at the last table during the time we reached

just few dishes were ordered as we wished to finish the meal fast

rushed over to Neway after we settled our stomach

yet we were sad to be informed that we could only get a room at 3pm

no choice but to walk around, and the little funny thing about here was that -->

we went down from the 5th floor to the 4th & 3th just to find an empty toilet for jojo

the toilets were so crowded as well due to the holiday!

...

finally it was 3pm and there we went again

as there were more customers, we were allowed to sing for only 3 hours

titbits charges applied too >.<

but who cared since we did enjoy ourselves

boon sang quite a lot of songs!

mostly cantonese songs & 陈小春's songs

not bad, he should sing more :)

it was really a nice experience with them

can't wait to sing with the couple again!

01/09/11

2011-09-02T11:55:00.000+08:00

should be updating my bloggie about my trip yesterday

but ended up going for photoshooting with sam & sk

the experience this time was really a funny one

they are both friendly & nice photographers :)

learnt a lot from them about the skills of posing

sk, I'll try to walk by not bending my back starting today :p

went to DOME for some refreshing before going home separately

the banana smoothies I ordered was awesome!

love the taste really much, felt like I'm drinking fiber

started to busy with my friend signs after I was home

lacking of creative idea >.<

still owed quite a lot of friend sign

sorry to some if I couldn't make it before FFS being closed down

spend some time & take a look at this album if u dunno what is friend signs

--> all about my FFS ♥

did take a short nap before going out for dinner with boon & jojo

we had steamboat at "HOMETOWN" & the dinner really made us full!

ordered the steamboat for only a portion but adding many side dishes

wondering when can we enjoy our meal together again after this month : (

anyway, I know we will meet again someday later

what I need to do is just appreciate every moment I spend with them

will be going to sing-k at Neway,TS with the couple later :)

so, it's time to get prepared

want to know more about my trip?

haha, I try to update my bloggie with 4 posts tomorrow

O V E R

2011-08-30T13:20:00.001+08:00

have not been here for more than a week as I just came back from my trip yesterday

my final exam had finally over & so for my 4D3Ns trip with my lovely classmates

our diploma life had ended, thanks for all the memories u guys gave to me

2 years & 3 months had passed & it's time to say goodbye to some of you

I won't be sad because I know that we will meet each other again someday

gonna update my bloggie with more new posts after I finished editing the photos taken

will share everything happened throughout my trip soon

S T A Y T U N E : )

the day before 4th paper

2011-08-22T19:52:00.000+08:00

the day for revision again : )

woke up super early this morning -> 6.45am

started to watch my "one piece", 5 more to go until the latest

ended up with tears falling when I was watching it

the scenes were so touched with the love between partners

Luffy's bro, Ace, sacrificed himself in front of Luffy just to protect him

his partners tried their best to rush over to the promised venue as soon as they could

to give their care and support to Luffy,

who had suffered from great pain of losing his beloved bro

spent the whole morning with cartoon only :p

nap for almost 2 hours before I went to buy my favourite congee

wanted to start my revision after my meal

BUTTTTTTTTTTTT

got addicted to "whatsapp" after I discovered my phone could support the application

so at last, I spent only an hour on my revision as it is not difficult at all

a bit over confident in myself but that's a good sign

at least my coursemates won't have to burn their midnight oil for this paper

so GOOD LUCK to everyone having exam tomorrow : )

20-21/08/11

2011-08-21T21:30:00.000+08:00

let's see what happened in these 2 days

for 20th morning, I had my LAW paper

woke up at 5am to do my last minute revision

my brain was blank as I got too nervous

struggled until I went in the exam hall

I was finally relieved at the moment I got the question paper

GOD treated me quite well & LAW did love me!!!!

the questions weren't that hard

I think I can pass this paper with at least a C

pray pray

bought crackers again to celebrate my happy mood

finally got some time to rest after the 3 papers

the remaining 2 papers would end in 6 days

which meant that I have plenty of time to prepare for them

started to chat on phone after I woke up from my nap

got so surprised when Vidic called me!

we chatted for almost 2 hours although that was the 1st time we chatted

how "geh bo" we are!

21/08

woke up quite early this morning

didn't feel like doing anything after I had my clothes washed

I didn't wash my cloth for more than a week!

did do some cleaning to my messy room after that

my routine today was just simple:

nap -> facial mask + hair treatment -> TV -> on call again

ya, kinda simple activities

just wanted to rest my body & mind today

will be starting with my revision for the next paper tomorrow

so it's time to go to bed now, nite guys :)

3rd paper - revision for L A W

2011-08-20T19:44:00.002+08:00

finally manage to rest myself after the 3rd paper

3 papers within four days is really a bit over

I think many of my brain cells have been sacrificed

OMG please don't torture old woman like this!

sorry to say but bye bye my dear brain cells

don't blame me, final exam is the one that kills u guys :p

i got so stressed yesterday!

I understood everything but I just found it hard to memorize the notes

was really fucked up like hell

no mood to study at all

and look at this picture :

I bought all these to eat,

thinking that this could help me to reduce at least some stress

BUT WHO KNEW

I ended up eating those crackers & watching Stephen Chow's movie >.<

really shamed on myself as I didn't concentrate on my revision at all

everything in my mind was where to play & eat around after finish my last paper

nothing related to LAW seemed willing to come into my mind

decided to leave everything to the next morning at last

enjoyed on calling with fa & someone ------------> my Mr. Y

it's the 1st time he called me, felt really sweet ♥

chatted with him until I went to bed

...

guess what happened after I had gone to bed

a friend of mine called me & scared me at the beginning of our conversation!!!!

telling me that he had been robbed =.=

gonna chop him into pieces when I go back to Sarawak in Sep

chatted until almost 1am then just we ended the call

MY REVISION :(

End of 2nd Paper

2011-08-18T15:01:00.000+08:00

the 2nd paper had finally ended

I think I lost quite many marks for this paper

but it's useless to talk more about it

nothing seems to be changed even I'm sad for it,

the best way is - JUST FORGET IT

I'm the kind of people who depends on LUCK

so I'll just leave everything to God no matter good luck/bad luck

sounds irresponsible but that's the real me :p

I'll never welcome stress from exam to bother me again!

again, it's my nap nap time

L A W, i'm coming to fight with u after I wake up!

+ u + u for myself : )

before ending this post,

HAPPY BLESSED TO MY CUTE MEI MEI, SHINKY

love u really much & sorry for absent from your birthday celebration

hope u enjoy yourself to the max

17/08 Part 2

2011-08-17T16:38:00.003+08:00

just finished the 1st paper out of the 5

"hehe" for doing quite well during the exam

thanks god that all the questions were exactly the same as the tips given

I'm sure that I can get at least a B for this paper

so, no more worries about poor results

time for me to take a sweet nap

target tonight :

- memorize all the tips given

- facial mask

- hair treatment

- sleep before 10pm

hopefully I can get all these done by tonight

G A M B A T E H

fight fight fight!

something funny to share again

it happened just after I finished my 1st paper

I was on the way walking home from the bus stop opposite

a lorry stopped at the traffic light

I saw that the driver on the right was trying to climb over to the left

I meant the front passenger seat,
squeezing with the one sitting at the left to look at me

( I was walking with my face facing to the ground )

I guessed they wanted to have a clearer look on me

as they can only see my back at their position

and just at the moment I turned up my face,
SHITTTTTTT!!!!
both of them immediately sit back properly!!!!
I was like OMG, I scared them!!
finally I accepted the truth that
I looked really scary without make up :(

17/08 [Service Marketing]

2011-08-17T10:21:00.001+08:00

it's 17/08 finally

the first paper of my final exam will start this noon

errrrrrr, I'm 90% prepared

if the questions come out exactly as the given tips,

I think I'm able to answer the paper well

so wish me good luck ya

I hope I can start my war with a happy beginning

will be having the second paper tomorrow morning

it seems quite rush but I think I can do it

really put in the most effort I ever have throughout my diploma life

I even decided to disappear from FB for the entire 9 days until the exam ends

that's not hard actually if I really want to do it

seriously no FAIL for me please!!!!

just to share something funny here

I was so nervous yesterday & so I ate a lot!

just couldn't help to stop myself >.<

the consequence of that :

I kept running for toilet this morning!

forced to rest at home, laying on my bed like a corpse

instead of doing the last minute revision with my friends at the college library :(

anyway, it passed

I'm alright now, will start my last revision for this paper

GOOD LUCK TO ALL MY FRIENDS ♥

R A N D O M

2011-08-16T13:50:00.000+08:00

have not been here to update my blog for quite some days

too much things to write about but I just don't know where to start

my mind is in a great mess!!!!

not really in the mood :(

cried like hell last night

I was so stressed this time

don't wish to fail any of my papers since this is my final semester

besides stress from the exam,I faced stress from losing weight as well

kept trying to stop myself from eating too much

I even starved for 41 hours until I ate something this morning

ate an extra pack of Chipsmore & crackers after my breakfast

felt so guilty & I repeated what I did last time

I forced myself to vomit out everything after that

not going to eat anything until Thurs

really hope to lose my weight to 47kgs before August ends

good luck to myself in my exams & diet plan >.<

发泄感慨篇 XD

2011-08-11T16:41:00.001+08:00

this will be my first post in Mandarin for this year

the first & also the last, I think

so don't miss this out ya, friends : )

首先是发泄篇：

想对一小部分的脑残人士们说，我真的很讨厌你们

非常非常的讨厌！

尤其是某些女生，请顾好自己的嘴巴

要讲我的坏话就麻烦妳们在我面前大声讲出来

不然的话就给我滚远远，不要让我听见

一时半刻我还可以忍一忍（谁叫本小姐人就是那么好 :p ）

我不是很想跟妳们吵，因为根本没把妳们放在眼里

可是妳们叽叽喳喳的声量请调低，不要污染我的耳朵

说我常常穿很露来吸引男生？！

我严重对这句话反感！！！！

拜托，背心短裤是哪里得罪你们了？

你们不敢穿是你们的事

我知道嘴巴是你们的，要怎样说我是管不到

但是要批评我之前，先想想看自己是不是有那个资格

我也是经过减肥后才敢这样穿丫

请看清楚这张照片-->

我也曾经是个很自卑的女孩

不敢大声说话，不敢穿短裤短裙紧身衣

而且也经过一段很辛苦的过程才有现在的成果

不要随便否定我的努力

我相信世上只有懒女人，没有丑女人

我不介意妈咪没有给我大大的眼睛，

适当的眼妆可以给我电力十足的电眼

脸型不美也没关系，可以靠发型来遮掩

身高不足也无所谓，我觉得自己可爱就好

只要搭配对的服装就可以凸显自己的优点

所以呢，请记得当你们在大鱼大肉的时候，

我一个人躲起来忍着不吃的痛苦

自己不努力就别妒忌我的成果

每个女孩都希望自己可以把美美的衣服穿得好看

我目前是做到了

现在年轻时候不打扮美美，

难道要等到将来老了皮残肉皱的时候才这些比较清凉的衣服？

不怕被人家看笑话吗？

妳们不怕没关系，但我怕！

妳们要是还要继续一边大吃大喝一边批评我的话

就随便妳们吧

反正难看，没身材，每人要的是妳们

不关我的事

不要说我嘴巴和心肠坏，妳们的也不见得好到哪里！

男性朋友多又哪里错了吗？

知不知道为什么他们都不爱靠近妳们？

就是因为妳们那颗狭窄的心还有那惹人厌的嘴

我和他们的感情就像兄弟那样

大家都知道我的性格偏男性化

爹地妈咪也常说把我和我弟生错了

我弟就是一个有点女性化的大男孩

可妳们偏偏喜欢把我和那些男性朋友的感情复杂化

他们喜欢和我聊天，只因为我真的很聊得来

有心事时我永远都会是他们最好的听众

有困难时，我能帮的话就一定帮

就算没事，闲聊也是一种享受

从生活琐事到国家大事我们都可以聊

妳们那肤浅的脑袋应该不会明白

从妳们那只会批评别人的嘴巴也吐不出像样的话语吧

真的很替妳们的父母心疼，他们辛辛苦苦地教育妳们

但一切似乎都白费了

我不敢说自己有多好，但我时时刻刻都在努力把自己最好的一面表现出来

爱自己就是爱父母的最佳表现

讲到这，那就顺便讲讲我有多讨厌那些不自爱的智障们吧

你们的存在根本就是浪费父母们多年来对你们的付出

有事没事总爱自己搞emo搞自闭

好像这世上除了自己仅有的几个朋友就没别人了

整天在MSN，脸书，推特 post 些有的没的

说什么世界是灰色的，没人了解你们

告诉你们，人家按“赞”都是因为在嘲笑你们罢了

有没有觉得按赞的人很多，但真正留言的人却没有几个

其实会花时间留言的应该也是跟你们一样的emo族吧

因为感同身受，所以愿意陪你们疯

那些爱自己，有长脑的人才懒得理你们

像我这样开朗的女孩多好，人见人爱

朋友多到数不清

你们就慢慢沉醉在自己emo的世界里，

享受你们没人疼没人爱的日子吧

少来烦我，不想跟你们扯上任何关系

感慨篇：

单身也快两个月了吧，也轻松了两个月

这段时间想了很多

因为不爱拿自己的事烦着朋友，也不想让家人担心

憋在心里又觉得难受

所里选择写在这只有少数人群知道的小小世界

其实呢，我没有外表那么坚强

也没有我表现的那么不在乎

这次分手，心里深处的某一个地方好像被伤到了

很不愿意想起当时的情形，

但是真的怀疑如果我们还在一起，

同样的事还会不会再发生

当我无助，需要你的时候，

你会不会又再一次让我失望？

想问你，是不是在一起久了

所以你厌倦了

就连讲些甜言蜜语哄我你也显得不耐烦

分手后，在一个月内接到你的电话的次数

比在一起时的三个月还多

我应该开心吗？

分手后，你的信息也比以前甜

代表什么呢？

假装没事和你聊天需要多大的勇气

但我做到了，很为自己感到骄傲

目前在脸书的感情状态是和我的“为什么先生”一起

我们很甜的哟

很多朋友都以为我和他真的在一起了

没有啦，我们其实都没见过对方

就只是放玩玩罢了

可是也因为这样，少了很多苍蝇来烦我

所以谢谢丫

谢谢你的甜言蜜语

谢谢你没见过我还对我这么好

我的你

我不是要比较什么

只是觉得很讽刺

人家连我是谁都不知道都可以对我那么好

为什么我们还在一起的时候

你好像都把我当草耶

只有当我想离开的时候才勉强哄一哄我

其实好像也没有哄到

你那时候没错的话应该是说我有事没事就爱和你闹分手吧

其实我是真的累了，我也不是那些幼稚的小女孩

你如果真的了解我的话就应该知道我不是随便说分手的人

就写到这里吧

就让所有不开心的心情在这里结束

该流的泪也应该停了

我还是那个开朗坚强的女孩 ♥

Surprise??

2011-08-09T22:22:00.003+08:00

hohoho

guys, guess what I got at the pastry class today?

S U R P R I S E

it's a purse!!

a milky purse from my beloved wifey

felt like wanna hug her tight & kiss her at the moment I received this!

but too many people at the pastry kitchen, didn't really dare to do so

I was scared that she might slap me for eating her "tauhu" :p

how lucky am I to have such a lovely wifey

she seems understanding me so well

of course not only me, she always knows everyone well

envy of her other friends >.<

joke joke*

I know she is a nice girl

that's the reason I love her so much

and many other guys love her too : (

jealous nar, don't ever want to imagine the day she leaves me

LOL

again, u guys know I'm just joking right?

I'm still normal girl who love guys more : )

wifey, thanks a lot for the purse

I really love it much, just like how much I love u
♥

Herbal Tea ♥

2011-08-09T21:39:00.000+08:00

empty bottle?

hahahahahahaha

herbal tea was inside when I first got it last night

a big big THANK YOU to ky ky for this

this post is specially wrote for you : )

really touched when you took this for me

not bad, it tasted good!

never expect that I can get the herbal tea cooked by a guy :p

it's my first time, seriously!

hey, friends!

try to imagine a guy cooking herbal tea in the kitchen

doesn't the scene touched?

I wonder how many guys from my generation are willing to cook herbal tea

good job, dude

keep it up for your future family

always supporting you : )

Egg Mask ♥

2011-08-08T19:47:00.000+08:00

getting too free & had been watching PPS since this morning

decided to rest my eyes finally

thinking of doing a facial mask to pamper my face BUT

then found out that I had finished all my masks : (

suddenly saw the eggs at the kitchen when I tried to find something to eat

"why don't I try the egg mask?"

immediately searched the information online after I had decided

the steps are simple & all I needed is just an EGG

1. Separate the egg white and egg yolk

2. Apply the egg white evenly on the face

3. Let the egg white stay on face for 10-20mins before it get dry & hard

4. Wipe away with warm water

5. Turn for the egg yolk mask : Repeat step 2 & 3.

6. Wash away with cold water to "close" the pores on the face

honestly, I was surprised with the effect of the egg mask

I felt lucky for giving it a try, it was great!

my face turned so smooth after the mask was done

and it did help in tightening the skin as well

just a little complaint on the disgusting smell of the raw egg :p

but after considering on the benefits it gave, I decided to ignore the smell

Gals, give yourself a chance to try on this simple & economic egg mask

I'm sure u will be amazed by it ♥

- diet story -

2011-08-06T16:29:00.002+08:00

I know that I've been gaining weight recently

BIG BUTT, FAT THIGH!

don't really dare to go out with my short pants

my body shape now is just like the DUMPLING!

T_T

hope to hit my target of 47kgs before August ends

wish me good luck, guys

to prevent myself from going too over,

I will be on diet for 3 days -> 06/08 - 08/08

just 3 short days having meals without fats

meaning that, no FRIED CHICKEN CHOP!

not only that, dinner & supper is not allowed as well

the process is kinda torturing as I reduce so much on the intake of food

I used to eat a lot for the past 1 week >.<

shall really reward myself with nice meals only if I can stand the tough mission

which means I can't take any extra food except for what had been planned

I'm going to have the same menu for 3 continuous days!

don't tempt me with nice food please : (

let's see my menu :

breakfast :

1 apple

lunch :

2 hard-boiled eggs + 1 glass of soy bean milk

*Please pray that I'm still alive 3 days later :p

Congee with minced pork & preserved egg ♥

2011-08-05T19:10:00.002+08:00

Congee with minced pork & preserved egg ♥

( peanut, cuttlefish & sesame oil )

*highly recommended*

A special post for its super delicious taste

don't get cheated by its simple look in the photo,

it is the tastiest congee I ever had & I'm seriously addicted to it

I just had it 2 hours ago : )

and it was the 4th time in this week!

the wonderful taste can hardly be described by words

I always describe it as the most delicious congee in the world ♥

fall in love with it since the very first time I tried on it

it's really yummy!

let me explain why:

try to smell on the congee before you consume it

the congee smells good as cuttlefish & sesame oil is added

these two items seemed to be the key ingredients for the unique taste

the nice smell will stay in the mouth for hours

which makes me wanna to have more of it everytime >.<

well, I'll just stop here as I can't really find a suitable word to comment on the congee

it will be best if you guys can try it in real,

then u all will know that I didn't bluff about the taste : )

the congee can be get at a food stall opposite "Bou Bou" at Genting Kelang

the stall is opened daily except on Sunday, 3.30pm until 10pm

it sells also desserts such as red bean soup, green pea soup, bobochacha & ...

WHAT ARE U STILL WAITING FOR?

come on & give it a try, u will be amazed by this ordinary-looking food stall ♥

blood donation + dinner ♥

2011-08-04T13:12:00.000+08:00

TARC Blood Donation Event

Date : 01/08/11 - 05/08/11

Venue : College Hall

I had my 5th blood donation yesterday!

getting quite excited as I had not been donating blood since a year ago

the blood donation event this time was GRAND, in my opinion

everything seemed to be doubled, including the blood pressure measurement booths

the college hall was crowded with the blood donors & helpers for the meaningful event

spent some time waiting before my turn to contribute my 350ml of blood :p

I was so sleepy after the process, keep yawning non stop >.<

the nurses & helpers thought I was faint as I closed my eyes

actually I was still alright, just a little bit dizzy

but it frightened me when I walked out of the hall

I just couldn't stand properly & everything became blur!

no choice, but to follow the helpers to their resting station

felt better after drinking the lychee juice provided

was forced to rest a little longer before they were willing to let go of me

how weak am I??!!

never faced such problem before, perhaps I've to practise healthier lifestyle

NO MORE late sleep from now onward : )

rewarded myself with delicious dishes as dinner with my babes of OT5

that was our 1st formal dinner together

felt so warm as if I was having dinner with my own family

made me missed Sarawak a lot suddenly!

the dinner satisfied me much!

this also meant that I would be starting my diet plan starting the next day

many plans for next week were discussed after the dinner

but would the plans come true? I'm waiting :p

really hope to have fun with them before the stressful final exam

^ ^

Eat Eat Eat ♥

2011-08-02T21:40:00.000+08:00

01/08

there was no class on Monday

planned to cheong-k with Jacky from 1pm-7pm at first

but too bad that he had tutorial class at 3.30pm

had to cancel it although I was relunctant

forced myself to accept the reality

but what fucked me up was that Jacky's tutor cancelled the class

when he had already reached at the college

SHIT, I would have singing until my voice was lost if he informed Jacky earlier

bought the porridge at the food stall opposite my house

while waiting Jacky to come over

a big thank you to him as he helped me to clear away the rubbish in the house

another BIGGER thank you to him for "Burlesque"

finally he brought the movie for me

our 1st station was Murni SS2

took quite a long time to reach there because of the traffic jam

we got into disappointed mood when we were just about to reach

it was a Monday! and Murni was off!

holyshit!@#$%^&*

went over to Nasi Lemak Payung SS2

to taste on the Nasi Lemak Ayam as recommended

the portion was small & it looked really simple

but I would the say the taste was unusual

the nice smell from the rice was strong!

the sambal was a tough character too :p

Jimmy joined us after a while

enjoyed chit-chatting before Jacky & I headed for the durian stalls

spent quite a long time to park our car

the place was crowded as there was pasar malam there

walked a long distance before we reached the stall

Jacky was shocked by me when I suddenly pulled his shirt

( I saw a big mouse! Jacky wasn't scared by it but by me

the scene was kinda funny at the moment, I sweared )

"red prawn" & the D24 durian ♥

I prefer D24 more as it tasted as if you were eating ice-cream

and also, its flesh was a lot if compared with the other species

luckily we didn't eat the durian buffet

just 2 big durians weighted around 2.5kgs together could have killed us

>.<

finally the turn for our last station, Dim Sum at Jalan Ipoh ♥

I still forced myself to swallow the food down even though I was about to vomit

I really loved dim sum too much that I wanted to have them in my stomach

will be starting my diet plan after Wed

so this would be the last chance to eat in such uncontrolled way

only reached home around 12am

the time was late but I just couldn't go to bed just like this

my stomach was like bursting anytime :p

Surprise ♥

2011-08-02T07:51:00.000+08:00

31/07

I had done cleaning the house on the very last day of July

perhaps God was going to reward me,

I received loke's call when the cleaning was about to come to an end

then just I knew that he had reached KL

of course I wouldn't miss out the chance to meet him

OUR LAST MEET WAS ON THE X'MAS OF 2008!!!!

WE DIDN'T MEET EACH OTHER FOR 2 YEARS & 7 MONTHS!!!!

I got so excited that I rushed to bathe myself once the call was ended

and I managed to get myself ready in time when he reached at my place

went to "Spicy & Chill" Pan Mee Shop to cure our drumming stomach after that

we chatted a lot, others might not believe that we didn't meet for such a long time

time & distance seemed no effect on both of us

maybe we were too talkative :p

talked about our relationship, life, experiences & bla bla bla ...

planned to go for a movie at KLCC, yet the sudden rain spoilt everything

no choice but to bring him home and waited for the rain to stop

we continued our chat while watching PPS

the worst was that we totally lose our mood when the rain finally stop

loke even fell asleep on the sofa!

I took the chance to reply all messages in FB

we continued with the movie in PPS after he woke up

couldn't believe that I allowed our time to pass just like that >.<

decided to bring him to my 2nd home to try on the braised pork rice at last

it was a rush meal since I dated my babes in OT5 for the second round

felt sorry to him as I dumped him just like that

but he promised to meet me again before he went back to Sibu

I hoped that would be real

( I could only meet him in March 2012 if I missed the chance this time )

location changed, I then moved myself to Feeling Cafe with my babes

too bad that dai lou couldn't join us : (

we chatted on some funny topics but don't ask me on the contents

I had forgotten all :p

started to play "big old 2" when we got a little bit bored

missed the game seriously coz I didn't play it since Chinese New Year

just never understood the reason I got so addicted to those gambling game

just forget about it, I don/t mind u guys calling me as ♥ Queen of Gamble ♥

Hohoho XP

I know some of my friends will ask this question for sure :

"Why am I not posting photos with loke?"

guys, I wish I can too

but we just get so busy & concentrate in our conversations

I had totally forgotten about this!

pray for me that he can squeeze some time to meet with me again before he goes back

Drinking Day

2011-08-01T16:12:00.001+08:00

29/07

Bing bing & Ah Di came back

since it's a friday night, all of them were ready to drink : )

I didn't plan to go out at first

but I just couldn't stop myself from the temptation of "Burlesque"

wanted to watch this movie so badly, so I followed Jacky out to copy the movie

who knew that Jacky never copied the movie to his pendrive!!!

really felt like killing him at the moment

*joke*

since there was no movie for me, so I just stayed to drink

I didn't drink much, so don't worry as I was not drunk

but I vomited a lot

beers really made me to feel full so easily

quite busy at the night actually

kept running between our table & the toilet

we drank at Cola Club before continuing our second round at Mellow Cafe

Tiong was really drunk, he kept talking nonsensea there >.<

but honest to say, I did enjoy myself everytime drinking with this gang

they made so much fun of each other LOL

teasing & bulling each other always

see, this was the way they drank!

really wanna spank everyone of them

they never wanted to drink normally =.=

bing bing- the only guy I took photo with during the night

quite funny & cute guy

so girls, welcome to flirt him :p

he will laugh until his mouth leak to his ears

hahahahhahahahaha~

Hanging out

2011-08-01T15:34:00.002+08:00

28/07

the next day after I was free from the stressful presentations

should be going out to meet my dears at 11am

but I only woke up at 11am

should SPANK myself hard for this >.<

guys, sorry to keep u all waiting but thanks god that I was not the latest :p

12 of us went to Times Square by bus & monorail

1st experience!

well, I meant 1st experience to take bus together with some of them

for example -> boon & mei mei

not bad, although that would be the only memory

but at least we did leave some memory together

reached TS and my gang headed to the cinema counter to purchase movie ticket

too bad that there was no nice seat & so the plan had to be cancelled

having our lunch separately before the next plan was coming out

*smile smile*

8 of us dined at "HUAN XI DI", located just beside the ticket counter

( a HongKong-styled Restaurant )

had fun chatting & joking while we were enjoying our meal

these were what we order -->

based on the photos, we can see that most people love cheese

I'm one of the cheese-lover!

do treat me with cheese-based food

if anyone wants to bring me for a meal :p

I swear I'll love u much for that ♥

( I can forget about my weight problem for CHEESE )

cheong-k at Neway for the next activity!

found it quite hard to sing out after eating too much

felt quite suffering as if gonna to vomit

but still, I didn't bother to care so much of that

just kept on singing non stop until I lost my voice

my throat was painful but as long as I enjoyed, who cared?

looked at my gang!

so enjoying : )

the couple & mihun ♥

couple & the gals

these were the free meals at Neway

highly recommended for the fried dumpling

the taste was really nice!

I ordered the sandwiches but it SUCKS actually >.<

laopo & me left earlier as we were going to swim at PV5

show u guys a photo of my sexy laopo -->

weewit~

don't feel envy of me :p

covered my face with the cartoon

my face really looked terrible without make up : (

swam a lot & caused my muscle over-stretched

it still hurts until today

*sigh*

should have be more careful next time

photo sessions again after we finished swimming

kelvin was the one taking the most photos that night, if I was not mistaken

went for dinner after everyone done their bath

I knew I shouldn't eat so much but I just wanted to eat so much

my carrot juice ♥

it tasted really "carrot"!

- good for eyes -

peanut lotus root soup boiled with ribs, served with rice ♥

the taste was okay, would like to recommend this too

girls should drink more as it helps in beauty purpose : )

again, I only went to bed after 2am >.<

H4ever Formal Day ♥

2011-08-01T14:02:00.003+08:00

27/07 Wed

Attendants : Everyone in H4, of course I mean the ex-H4iers as well

u guys could never leave us, fated to stick with H4 for the rest of your life ♥

( berg wasn't with us because of his injury )

I just couldn't stop myself from snapping photos since early morning

as everyone knew that I never fail to capture every memorable moment

actually my mood during the day was the combination of : ) & : (

: ) because of many nice photos had been taken

: ( because I was having 3 presentations

for those who don't know me well, I'm always a last-minute person

as usual, I didn't do much preparation for my presentation

slept early the previous night & woke up early in the morning to make up myself

nothing related to the presentation was done :p

don't slap me, I know I'm wrong

I promise I'll change but I can't guarantee when will that be

okay, back to the topic

the 1st presentation for Dr. Nang was quite simple

which I would say to be the most relax presentation ever

although he did ask some tricky questions

the next presentation was for Ms. Adeline,

we guys got a little annoyed as the class was delayed

maybe not we guys, just me

as I was really hungry at the moment!

all I had in my mind was just FOOD FOOD FOOD!

I just wanted to finish the presentation as soon as possible

& rushed to the nearest KFC to have my meal

let's see what I had done with my food :p

drumstick drumstick

I always love the drumstick a lot ♥

wow, I'm having long long tongue

LOL, don't slap me :p

going back to the college for the 4pm lecture

honestly, I didn't pay any attention to the lecturer

felt sorry to her but no choice

I needed to spend my time on memorizing my script for the last presentation

before the class started, everyone was busy taking photos here & there

and see this -->

FIRST photo for OT5

u guys would never know how touched am I when this photo was taken!!!!

we hanged out so often but didn't ever have a photo with 5 of us inside

really appreciated this photo a lot : )

ding...ding...ding...

finally it came!

my comment for myself was not so bad,

and luckily Mr. Alex didn't give me bad comment,

making me to feel impressed : )

our memory with Mr. Alex ♥

taa-dan, ready to leave

I left the college immediately after the class

missed my sweet home much

but changed my mind when I was on the bus

headed to my 2nd home (teahouse) to meet my new family members

got to meet Mr. Spag & his gang as well

chatted a lot with one of the old customer when I got back to teahouse

joked around and helped to serve the customers too

and before I left,

call me photo queen please :p

only able to get home around 11pm

exhausted to the MAX!!!!

I only managed to get to bed around 1am >.<

1st of August

2011-08-01T09:56:00.002+08:00

time flies & it's the first morning of August now

little messy gal finally manage to squeeze my time out for dear bloggie

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Guys. this is the new nick for myself, represented that I'm always in a mess :p

first, I need to explain the reason that I didn't update my blog yesterday

everything was going smoothly in the morning as I planned

I cleaned up my room and the living room,

having the old & unwanted clothes to be packed in a big bag,

7 big plastic bags of rubbish was produced,

no more dirty cloth spreading on the floor & bed,

& proud to display my super tidy wardrobe to the world

*wink wink*

I guess u guys can imagine how happy I'm now

although most of the things seem going out of my plan yesterday

for example :

- staying at home to complete my friend sign for FFS players

- having all my dirty clothes washed

- writing new posts for my bloggie

- rest early & eat less

I didn't complete any of the above

but still I'm satisfied with my day yesterday

will describe in more details in my coming post : )

h a p p y - f i n a l l y

2011-07-30T23:11:00.000+08:00

yeap, I'm in happy mood now

finally finish editing all the photos & have them uploaded

time for blogging

regarding the previous post, I should be having 4 missions today

just managed to complete 2 out of the 4

not bad, at least I had 50% done

the other two will be postponed to tomorrow

as I really need a nice rest now

still haven't recover from the dizzy mode since this morning

& actually feeling so hungry now

I planned to have "Alisan" chicken chop as dinner just now

but the sad thing was that the stall didn't open!!!!

no choice but to starve as I had no interest on the other food just then

keep drinking plenty of water, yet it doesn't help at all

I still feel hungry, really hungry :(

don't feel like eating anything & I know I'm gaining weight recently

it's time to stop all oily food & dinner

so all I can do is just forcing myself to go to bed early

sigh*

night, world ♥

should be

2011-07-30T11:05:00.000+08:00

should be going to bed early last night

but I ended up going out and drank with my cousin & his friends

should be updating my bloggie last night as well

but I ended up drunk and only came back around 4am

should be starting healthy diet since yesterday

but I ended up drinking a lot

should be finish editing all the photos by this morning

but I woke up late

should be going to the market to buy fruits

but it was raining heavily & making me lazy to go out

SHOULD BE!!!!!!!

should be seems nothing if we are not going to work it out!

I should..oops..maybe "I must" sounds better

I must try my best to make everything done as how they are planned

so plan for today :

- have at least 3 friend signs done -

- all the photos have to be finish edited -

- 1 meal is more than enough for this particular day -

- bloggie has to be updated with at least 2 new posts -

gonna relax myself by watching my favourite Taiwan tv programme

hosted by xiao s & kang yong

before starting my missions today ♥

over ♥

2011-07-29T13:15:00.000+08:00

yeah, finally everything is over

bye bye to my stress, I'm leaving u

don't ever come & disturb me for the two following weeks

had been really exhausted these 2 days

but I did enjoy a lot with my gang

we took photos, hanging out & joke around

this is why I didn't update my blog although I have lots to write about

as I couldn't spare out my time

but now, I have done all the classes for this week

so, it's time for photo editing & blogging

keep on tune ya, guys ♥

the day

2011-07-27T07:03:00.000+08:00

it's my habit of coming to my blog to write something

whenever I'm having messy mind

finally the very important day has come

getting so nervous for my presentation later

though in my mind, it tells me :

" That's nothing different

except u are speaking a bit louder in English

in front of friends and tutors. "

seem easy but I just can't stop from myself from feeling scare

finding no way to calm myself down, I cook myself a plate of tomyam mihun

perhaps I could forget about the stress when I'm eating my favourite food

a big big THANK YOU to all my FFS family members

u guys are always supporting me although we never meet

I swear I really appreciate u guys a lot

and of course I won't forget about my bao bei cindy

I'm really touched when I saw her post on my FB wall

she even changed her profile photo to this -->

this was taken with her 19 months ago

I was still so CHUBBY last time

>.<

not writing much since I still need to prepare for my presentation

gonna make up myself well to take photos with my H4 gang

as this will be the last time for us to wear in formal together

see u guys in college later ♥

Countdown

2011-07-26T19:12:00.001+08:00

yes, countdown-ing to the day I get my freedom back

I'll be free from everything in less than 25 hours

HURRAY!

however, this means that I'll be having my final exam after 3 weeks

and also, it's time to say bye bye to my friends in KL after 2 months

just about 60 days, the time is always flying >.<

no more hanging out no more joking no more teasing no more shopping

I gonna miss u guys much for sure, especially my favourite gang :(

really hate the feeling of separating apart

but no choice, we need to face the truth even though I hate

so the only thing I can do is to spend as much time as I can with them

wish to have more sweet memories with them

and no doubts that they will be always in my mind after I go back to Sarawak

okay, I know I'm a little bit too far, pulling myself back

going to have my hair treatment and facial mask now

of course I won't forget to do some preparation for my presentation

let's work hard, H4 ♥

- My Day -

2011-07-25T22:00:00.000+08:00

finally had my room 50% tidy

and it's time to rest now

suddenly thought of what my babe told me when we went home together

kept thinking & thinking

relationship between friends really requires lots of care

it can be simple sometimes but it can be complicated as well

different point of view & thinking might cause two friends to quarrel

she is having conflicts with her bestie

& I feel bad when seeing her in down mood

she doesn't even have the mood to do her revision because of that

babe, just wanna let u to know that u are never alone

I know it's hurt since she is your bestie

but bear in mind that there are still lots of friends around you

be strong & do whatever u like

I'll be always supporting u ♥

I might not be understand your problem well

since I rarely face problem like this

I don't mix up with friends whom I don't like

and only those having similar characteristic with me can get close to me

they always support what I do

sincerely hope that your bestie can understand your act

& wish that both of you get close like before

♥

relationship :p

2011-07-25T19:20:00.001+08:00

my relationship status was so complicated since last night

I was in a relationship with momo last night

and yet I'm married to yy today

" WTH is all this about????!!!! "

I know some of my friends will say this for sure, haha

while some just asking me who will be the next guy for tomorrow :p

u guys can just kindly ignore me

I'm just enjoying flirting around as I'm single now

and it's my freedom to do anything to my profile

as long as I don't hurt anyone

I'm saying this to a particular guy,

who always leave stupid comments on my wall & my photo

u should notice something since I don't reply your comment at all

I'm not so close with you actually & u know that

please don't act like you are so friend with me

I feel disgusting!

see, u make me run out of my title of this post..

HATE U >.<

well, just short explanation for my relationship status

none of the status is real

the only truth is that I'm single

always single until the day I announce my boy boy to the world ♥

another shopping day ♥

2011-07-25T18:55:00.000+08:00

24/7

went shopping with Jacky at TS as rewards for myself

had been really exhausted throughout this month

we walked and walked to complete our "mission"

should praise myself as my mission had been completed :

shoes, blouse, skirt, legging & some accessories

I brought all of them home as I planned

Jacky failed his mission :p

he didn't buy all the items which he had targeted

and few tasks were added for him after he had sent me home

something to mention here

I bumped into my ex-housemate, Deski

while we were about to leave TS for our dinner

I was shocked that he had slimmed down a lot

I could hardly recognize him!

how nice if I was him, I wanted to be slim too >.<

( really gaining lots of weight recently )

forgot about weight problem, we headed to Sakae Sushi to cure our hungry stomach

both of us kept craving for food at first,

but after that we were like vomiting everything

we ate too much!

I was the one to be blamed actually

Jacky did stop me from taking extra plates of sushi from the belt

but I was just too stubborn

no choice but to suffer our stomach

spent RM115.60 for this meal

mummy will scold me for sure if she knows this

so I'll just keep this as secret

price isn't that important, the important is that we did enjoy

the sushi was just so-so overall

I still prefer sushi at Sushi King ♥

Hello, I'm back

2011-07-23T23:53:00.001+08:00

july - busy month

a month full of assignments & exams

caused me not having time to update my blog often

but one GOOD NEWS for me :

all exams had been done, though some of the results weren't so satisfactory

I'm free from assignments too!

the only remaining was the presentation

I'll be having 3 presentation on next Wed

quite suffering but glad that I can enjoy my days starting next Thurs

this also means that more posts will be coming soon

need to spend some time for updating the post which I've missed out for the previous weeks

bringing the time back to yesterday

I went to a new taiwan cafe to try on the food with my gang

xiangxiang wasn't with us as he had to celebrate his 1st anniversary with his girlfriend

and these were what we had ordered -->

lemon juice ♥

this one is really nice, I love it much

honey juice ♥

it's good for ladies

卤汁饭 ♥

I had high expectation on it but too bad that it disappointed me :(

台湾盐酥鸡

the taste is just nice

eggs & taufu in soy sauce ♥

the taufu is quite hard to bite :p

spicy chicken chop ♥

the portion is really big & it tastes really nice

蚵仔面线 ♥

this disappointed me too

>.<

+ + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + +

went to Jusco to walk around and shop for something

laopo bought a pair of heels

I wished to buy something but I just couldn't find anything I liked

night - yamcha with dai lou & ky ky

I ate a lot!!!!

just didn't get to know the reason I felt so hungry last nite

one thing I needed to mention

I was so sad that I didn't bring my camera with me

missed out lots of the photos for the food

*knock my head*

but really had a nice chat with them

I should hang out more with them since this is the sem

it's time to go to bed now

feel great after having my facial mask

looking forward to the hang out with jacky tomorrow : )

1st part time job for 2011

2011-07-18T21:52:00.001+08:00

venue : KLCC

date : 18/07/11

time : 10.00am - 5.00pm

payment : RM59.50 (cash)

had not been working part time since august 2010

so, I had my 1st part time job for my 2011 at KLCC today

14 were chosen among students in H4, and I was one of them

Berg was unable to join us as he leg was injured in the competition

actually many of us were reluctant to go

as they said working at KLCC banquet was such a tiring job

( I only understand what they meant 9 hours later )

all of us waited so early at the college main gate as required

yet the van was late!

we girls were rushing to put on make up and had our hair tied

after we were all done, laopo's shoes were complained by the A.M.

she asked laopo to go home again & again!

HOLY SHIT, I JUST COULDN'T STAND HER FC*KING ATTITUDE

I knew laopo was wearing the wrong shoes BUT

I then noticed that shoes of some Malay girls were even OVER!

big ribbon on the shoes, grey shoes with spots!

WHAT THE HELL WAS GOING ON?!

finally only12 of us left, each of us having one table to serve

I got so nervous as I had not been serving for almost a year

I made several mistakes because of that

luckily all my guests were so kind and friendly

they kept joking with me so that I could get more relaxed

felt sorry for them as I didn't provide good service

*promise that I'll improve myself next time

just to complain something happened when I worked

this was the very first time someone asked me whether I am a Malay!

throughout my hotel life, there were lots of guests asking me that :

" Are you from China? / Are you Korean / Japanese? "

GRRRRRRRRRRR~

really sad, perhaps I looked like Malay with all my hair tied up :(

don't ever ask me to post my photo with that ugly look!

I just feel so unsecured without my front hair

the nightmare finally ended when the clock showed 5pm

but we actually done our work before that

glad that we didn't need to wait for long to get our salary

and I managed to reach home before six o'clock

not bad, at least I got time to rest

and I did my hair treatment & facial mask as well

I would go crazy for sure if I didn't pamper myself with these

( especially after been torturing )

gonna sleep earlier tonight

my legs hurt >.<

I ♥ Avril Lavigne

2011-07-14T19:11:00.001+08:00

我纹身、抽烟、喝酒、说脏话，但我知道我是好姑娘。

真正的婊.子喜欢装无辜、装清纯、喜欢害羞、喜欢穿粉色衣服。

男人肤浅，都只看表面。所以，他们只能错过好姑娘，然后被婊.子骗得痛不欲生。

只有女人才能看出谁他妈是真正的婊子。——艾薇儿

a friend posted this out on Facebook

and I strongly agreed with the short description

for my friends who don't understand mandarin,

the words mean :

I have tattoo, I smoke, I drink, I speak foul language

but I know I'm a good girl.

the real bitches like to act innocent,

pretend to be shy & wear pinky clothes

men are stupid and they look only the surface,

so they miss out good girls/women

& been cheated by the bitches

only girls/women know who is the bitch!
love the sentences much

perhaps I'm the type of girl too

foul language is my way to communicate :p

I drink but not so often

I don't smoke as it's unhealthy

tattoo - I longed for it but never try to have one

I don't mix with people whom I don't like

when I say I hate, then I really hate

guys who are not bringing your brain with you,

stay away from me & don't bother me

I look down on those who don't love themselves

so please love yourself before u want me to love you

THAT'S ME ♥

1st post without title

2011-07-13T09:57:00.000+08:00

no idea of which title suits this post, so finally decided no title for it

this will be a short post

just to express how I feel now here as I don't wish to announce to the world later

only those who do really care & view my bloggie will know

I was woke up by great pain at my stomach this morning

pain caused by stomachache + menstrual pain

and had been to the toilet twice since I woke up

the pain made me crawling to the toilet instead of walking properly

( a bit over-described but I just want to show how pain am I now )

the honey yesterday might be too much for me

should control the portion next time

I don't wish this to happen to happen to me again

the pain really kills!

>.<

flirting ♥

2011-07-13T01:27:00.001+08:00

a post for my new friends but I'm not going to write their full name here

I don't wish those who don't share the same thinking as us to know more about them

my previous experiences taught me to stay away from those people

they always commented bad behind me

I pretended as I didn't know anything & just ignore what they said

nothing to get angry for since they are not important to me

I understand that we are from different planets so nothing to blame on them

I might an alien in their eyes as well :p

back to my topic

w & e

why mention them suddenly?

they are friends of mine

quite jealous of them actually

both having girlfriends but still, they are sweet to me

oops, not only me but with other girls too

their girlfriends have great confidence to them,

give them freedom & trust them always

this short paragraph is for w

just knew his last month

a nice & caring guy

he cared me like an elder brother cared of his little sister

sometimes sweeter than that although we didn't meet even one time in real

we enjoy flirting each other but both of us know that

we are just closer normal friends and nothing more will happen between us

even though I know, he knows & his girlfriend knows, others don't know

( especially those idiots who live in their world )

no matter how they look at me, I still prefer to live on my way

I appreciate my friendship with him

and I sincerely wish that this pair of couples can be together always

I love them much!

they will always have my blessing ♥

now, it's turn to talk about my e

knew him last month too

he is much funnier than w

I would comment him in this way :

he is not flower-hearted but he loves the girls

to him, all girls are precious presents from God

and it's his responsibility to care & love them

as I know, he really enjoys flirting around & sometimes he is quite over

the "over" I meant here is just he flirts with too many girls

don't think to other places

this makes his girlfriend to get jealous sometimes

but still, she allows him to flirt around

no matter how he flirts, his girlfriend is always the most important to him

I bet you girls will jealous for sure if u know how nice he treats his girlfriend

the ways they talk, quarrel & joke are really sweet

being melted by the comments they left just now

this pair of couples really bring lots of laughter to my life

thanks ♥

before ending this post, just two more short paragraphs for another 2 guys

1 for yy - my owner in FFS who stalked my bloggie just now

he is a kind, friendly, cute & naughty guy

words can't describe how nice he is actually

in short; I'm lucky to have him as my owner

love him the most among all my owners in FFS

girls, drop by his wall & flirt him ya :p

another one is for jason

a friend in FFS too

sorry to him as I bullied him just now

but I know he won't get angry coz he is always nice

and he shares the same characteristic with the 3 guys mentioned above -

F L I R T I N G

I know, though he did try to hide from me

anyway, I just love the ways they flirt

we are of the same gang from the same planet ♥

C O N S T I P A T I O N !

2011-07-12T22:49:00.000+08:00

look at the photo & this is my face expression now!

A G A I N ! ! ! !

as mentioned at the title of the post, I have being facing constipation recently

I simply hate constipation so much and I believe none of us likes it

in order to get it away from me, I bought the bliss yogurt drink & the yogurt

planned to have these as my breakfast for the whole week

as nestle yogurt products never fail my expectation on they

I can guarantee that they really show excellent effect in preventing constipation

BUT something out of expect happened :p

I kept running for toilet since I came back from class

3 times!!!!

a bit tired but glad that constipation is not pestering me anymore : )

started to feel hungry after that and so .....

I FINISHED ALL THE DISHES COOKED BY MY HOUSEMATE

( PORTION FOR 2 PERSON )

really hard for me to keep fit since my housemate came back

as she always cooks at night, my goodness >.<

actually I did stop her from cooking so much but she never listened

no choice but to finish all the food with her

( I was taught not to waste food since I was still a child )

oh ya, just discover that I didn't explain how my constipation was solved

HONEY is the great helper this time ♥

I drank a big bottle of honey during the lecture class

and as soon as I reached home, the "feeling" had came

rushed into the toilet with my fastest speed

the honey really gave me a shock

decided to list it on top of my favourite food & drinks list

girls, drink more honey as it is good for your skin as well

you will feel the difference for sure!

one more secret to share :

my "auntie" finally visited me this noon after delayed for 10 days :p

Bak Kut Teh ♥

2011-07-10T15:42:00.000+08:00

woke up so early this morning just to go for the bak kut teh

I just slept for about 4 hours!!!!

my eyes was complaining by letting me to feel its pain

I suffered a lot as well and didn't dare to wear my contact lens

but to my surprise, the photos taking were not too bad actually

quite good looking without make up :p

I should stop making up myself for a week

my skin was getting so dry recently

pimples came out too

pity me

>.<

we were a bit late as the traffic light kept showing red light when it reached our turn

how unlucky T_T

same as the previous time, we ordered the dry & soup bak kut teh

of course we didn't miss out the "yao zha kuai"

had the cutlery washed

yummy yao zha kuai

"pu er" tea

soup bak kut teh

dry bak kut teh

something seemed like moving inside our stomach after our meal

sent laopo home quickly as she felt like her "aunty" is coming

rushed to fetch ky's friend later

game in progress

guess whose leg is this :p

naughty me :p

followed ky to the indoor futsal court to watch him playing with his friends after that

and I supposed doing my law assignment with his laptop

but fb-ing & blogging seemed to replace it instead

when I discovered the wireless connection

the time flied so fast that he will be finish his game soon

waiting to go back and edit my photos : )

G2 Dinner ♥

2011-07-10T15:31:00.001+08:00

I was really enjoying at laopo's church last night

it was an activity organised by her church

theme of the night - RED & BLACK

we reach the church around 6pm

and I just couldn't blink my eyes

as they were busy looking at the well-dressed ladies & gentlemen

everyone attended the dinner in gorgeous outfits

the girls were sweet & sexy while the guys looked smarter than usual :p

the dinner started with the singing

followed by the 1st performance with laopo & her sis, Alicia - diabolo performance

they first performed together before the solo performance by Alicia

we were then getting our food table by table

the "drawing competition" came the next

the rule required the 2 competitors to draw out 7 items mentioned in 30secs

30SECS!!!!

so I believed u guys could imagine how the drawings were liked

all of us were entertained by the cute drawings

there were also singing performances & the drum battle as well

it was really sad that dai lou wasn't with us

he missed the awesome performance!

in short, the dinner was successful

especially when the dance floor was opened

everyone was getting so high at the dance floor

they were all friendly and invited us to dance together

it was a little hard to me to dance with my high heels

didn't wear high heels for quite a long time

I found it hard to keep myself balanced while I was trying to dance

and this wasn't the worst

my dress was the one to be blamed!

or I should blame myself for not having bigger boobs

it kept slipping down & I had to pull it up so that my bra wouldn't be seen

the bothering dress restricted my movement

I didn't dare to move too much to prevent it from slipping

and it was funny that I found that most girls are having the same problem as me

but at last we still danced so crazily

and of course I did remember to take photos with laopo & ky ky before we leaved

& I managed to take photo with the pretty girl whom I loved her so much

honestly, I couldn't move my eyes from her the whole night

( don't worry, I'm not interested to girls :p )

ky with alicia

my face >.<

she is gorgeous
^^

3 of us
( the photo will be perfect if xx & dai lou is with us )

alicia & me

us again

with the girls ♥

we had our second round at Express

photo snapping activity again

girls like us always wish to have our best look in the photos

truly had an unforgettable night at Klang

I'm glad that I made the right choice for joining the dinner

^.^

Klang again ♥

2011-07-09T12:52:00.000+08:00

hey, Klang ♥

I'm here to visit u again :p

the main purpose the the trip this time :

attend the dinner at laopo's church tonight

I'm waiting for ky ky to take his bath

before fetching me to buy my dress for the dinner

a bit sad that dai lou is not joining us tonight due to the 709 activity

there are road blocks everywhere at KL areas

causing severe traffic jam

feel pity for those who still need to work today

bak kut teh, I'm coming for u tomorrow

yummy yummy

saliva coming out from my mouth when thinking of it

oh ya, I'm staying at ky's house for these 2 nights

his mummy cooked these delicious dishes

pampered my stomach a lot :p

虾仁桂豆 ♥

海鲜豆腐 ♥

蜜汁烧鸡 ♥

红枣花生莲藕排骨汤 ♥

and she made a lemon cheese cake too

I just can't wait to taste it

don't jealous of me ya

hahaha

I'm sorry

2011-07-09T12:21:00.000+08:00

wondering I'm apologizing to who, right?

no doubts but to my dearest bloggie

it maybe nothing to you guys, but it means a lot to me

it allows me to share all my happy & unhappy memories here

always there for me no matter where or when

BUT what did I do to appreciate it?

I did nothing but to abandon it for quite a long time

the beginning of July was really busy

busy with my assignments & exams

and my birthday was on the 4th

making me not in the mood to celebrate my big day

all those study stuffs frustrated me, headache came to me again

different types of problems arose

well, I know that these are all challenges from God

I believe I can overcome all those challenges

friends and family are always there to support me to make me strong

and I know I won't disappoint them

my course is going to end in two months

and I hope that I can pass all my papers

so that I can get my diploma cert.

no more resit for me, PLEASE

gambateh, xiao v ♥

B A C K

2011-07-02T18:54:00.000+08:00

hey, guys

it's July now

I'm back to bloggie

sorry for not updating my blog for quite many days

have been busy for exams, assignments & .....

mummy & bro came to KL on Tues night

busy accompanying them until yesterday morning

got really exhausted after these days

I finally got a nice rest last night

had all my dirty clothes washed this morning as well

all photos had been edited too

I'm in happy mode until ...

I think of :

- my LAW assignment & exam

- having Maintenance exam on my birthday

making me hard to arrange my time

probably still unable to set myself free from the busy life yet until next week

will try my best to work on my assignments!!!!

1st try photo shooting with Feeq ♥

2011-06-28T09:51:00.000+08:00

25/06

had my 1st photo shooting with Feeq, a cute guy

the venue was at J.W. Marriott

got to know his friend, a sweetie there - Vivian Tan

thanks her for making up for me

she taught me some make up skills too

love the ways she talked & acted

and I love her outfit seriously

she attracted my full attention ♥

won't talk a lot about our photoshooting process

as I'm rushing time for the moment :p

just to show my photos here

but I will say I enjoy a lot throughout the process

u guys can view the photos by clicking here

for the video, click this link

and feel free to visit and support his page & blog

more photos by him can be viewed there

like his photos if u think they are nice

simple meal ♥

2011-06-28T09:17:00.002+08:00

a special post for my new housemate

sorry to her as I still don't know about her name

but I called her as "da jie" ( eldest sis)

her man & her call me as "xiao mei" (little sis)

she is from China & her man is from JB

admire them a lot as they seem like know everything

da jie shows great potential in doing the housechores

she cleans the kitchen, the living room, the balcony & the floor

thanks a lot to her for cleaning up our messy & dirty house ♥

as I mentioned in the previous post, I didn't eat anything on Sunday until.....

9pm++, she cooked for her man
didn't expect that her man ask her to cook my portion as well

her cooking was done after 30mins
and again, I ate the most among them >.<

felt so embarrassed as she cooked & washed all plates after that

I did nothing expect eat

they even offered me fruits as dessert after the meal

see, how lucky am I to have them as my housemate

this is what she cooked

just simple dishes but they warmed me up

( as all the dishes are extremely spicy)

1- spicy potato

2- spicy tomato with eggs

3- prawn with spicy sauce

love all the dishes much

we love spicy food a lot

mummy & bro ♥

2011-06-28T08:36:00.001+08:00

just realize that I have not updated my blog since Saturday

sorry for keeping those who read my blog waiting

woke up quite early today as I slept early last night

seriously I did not go to bed early since 18/06

10 nights!!!!

can't imagine that I allow myself to live in such unhealthy ways

not only that, I even got drunk on Fri & Sat night!

was vomiting like hell

thanks so much to Jacky & his friends for sending me home

sorry for causing trouble to you guys

Sunday was my nightmare

I keep feel like vomiting & I did vomit

I couldn't even drink!

the water I drank was all vomited

making me dared not to eat even though I was hungry

finally it comes to the main point of this post

mummy & bro is coming to KL tonight

just can't wait to meet them

I guess we shall have an unhealthy supper

all my family members love fried food so much

oyster omelette, we are coming to have you inside our stomach :p

but before that, I still have to attend my pastry class & its exam >.<

gonna have a different chef for the class today

don't really know whether she likes us

as I know, she doesn't like to face noisy students

but too bad that our class is the representative of the group

God bless

morning to all & enjoy your day

to those who are just about to sleep, "MORNITE" to you ♥

busy busy busy

2011-06-25T07:38:00.000+08:00

I have been busy for a week!

finding myself don't even have time to sleep

busy for classes

busy for assignments

busy for exams

busy for outings

quite sad as I don't have time for my blog

wondering when can I update for posts for last week

don't have time for FFS too

sorry to all my pets

as I won't have too much time to work you all for the coming 2 weeks

>.<

not only that

I'm busy eating all the times

OMG

gaining so much weight

47kg is getting so far away from me

T_T

in order to let my friends know what happened to me throughout this week,

here's the simple updates of myself :

as I mentioned in FB, I came back from Alor Setar on Monday

stayed 1 more night at my cousin's house located at Puchong

only back to genting kelang on Tues

thanked a lot to my brother-in-law for fetching me back & sent me to the college

having mid term exam for service marketing on Wed

well, just one thing to comment about my exam --> [ www.GG.com ]

sigh*

gonna kept my Thurs activities as secret ( quite a sad day for me )

finally it was Fri

having class until 12pm & I had a 4-hour break before the lecture

what was the activity for the break?

hohohohoho

of course my favourite mahjong time at laopo's house

after coming back from the college, immediately I took my bath

then just I went out to meet with my secondary's friends - hs, ming yih & kbs

chatted quite a lot of rubbish with them :p

went to meet up my cousin & his friends at Cola Club after that

they were so funny & friendly

a bit drunk as I didn't drink for such a long time

but I just love the time so much

just slept for only 3 hours

having 2 dates with my friends later

wow, another busy day too

will be hiding myself at home tomorrow to complete my assignments

okay, I'll stop here

time to prepare for my dates

^ ^

- S T A T U S -

2011-06-23T14:20:00.000+08:00

hey, guys!

I'm here to report on my current status

just read on this post & u will know everything

so please don't ask what happened to me again

I won't answer the question

as it's quite tiring of repeating the same answer

relationship status : SINGLE

don't doubt your eyes, I'm single now

finally made up my mind to break up with him,

the guy whom I had been together for 2 years

felt really sad when I made this decision

but don't worry for me

remember?

I'm always a tough girl

always the one who give supports to my friends

giving them advice when they are confused in life

so I won't be sad for long period

as I know life still goes on no matter how

I always set a deadline for my negative emotions

that's why I'm smiling all times

he was part of my life, my family

we were sweet although we seldom met with each other

he is studying at Penang while I'm in KL

hardly meet up as we were busy for our study

this made us appreciating our relationship more

we shared happy & sad moments together

we may quarreled sometimes but that didn't affect anything

we teased each other always too

he cheered up my life & cared for me

we tried to tolerate & accept with each other's weaknesses

I learnt to change myself since I knew I wouldn't be able to have him changed

he was kind of guy who got jealous easily

but I knew that was because he loved me

so I tried to stay distances from my male friends

I did try!

but.......

actually I wasn't happy when I did so

most of my friends know that I like to make new friends

& I get close with all my friends

he didn't like this at all & always compared himself with my friends

I didn't know he was serious or just kidding about this

but the fact was we quarreled for this quite often

when I asked for break up, he just thought that I wanted to escape from the problems

I knew my character wasn't good too

sometimes I acted like little kid as well

I got angry easily & showed no patience at all

but still, he chose to stay with me

try to think, who will be there to bear with my bad attitude?

of course my family, friends & the one who really loves me

but now, I've broke up with him

asking me why?

it's hard to mention in words

perhaps I'm getting greedy & having more expectation on him

seriously, I'm counting him in my future

I wish to get marry with him & have our babies

live together with him & his family

so automatically I measure him with stricter requirements

finding that he doesn't meet the qualification

or I should say he is not mature enough for me

an incident happened recently made me lost all confidence in him

felt unsecured to be with him

not only that, actually I found that both of us getting not so close like the past

conversation between us became less too

girls are sensitive & so am I

others may think that we are still sweet always

but I know.......

something is missing between us

finally I forced myself to face the truth that we are not suitable to be together

FOR MY HIM :

I know you agreed to break with me because u love me

just because of your love to me, u respect my decision

and u didn't try to change my mind

a big big thank for you

I know I'm not perfect for you so I hope that u can find a better companion soon

glad to see that you mentioned in your fb that u are happy with your single life

I guess that's true as u don't need to bear with my terrible attitude anymore

promise me that u will take good care of yourself, okie?

don't sleep late like what u always do

this act really bring serious consequences when u grow older

I admit that I still can't forget you completely in such short time

but I will try my best to do so & I believe I can do that

so don't worry for me

this song is dedicated specially to you, maybe it's a bit too fast now

but my words to u is best described by this song

^ ^

few of my friends surprised me

instead of worrying me, they felt happy for me to go back to my single life

although I didn't say anything, but they knew me well

opps, I should say they KNOW me well

we may not be hanging out or meet up often,

but whenever I need them,

they are always there for me

is this what people called true friends?

how lucky am I to have them in my life

they warm up my life!

thanks God for giving me such precious gift

and thanks mummy for supporting me

she showed her support by not giving any opinion

just a sentence from her :

" No matter what decision u make,we will support you as long as u feel happy with that.

We love you. "

because of this sentence, I cried again on the bus when coming back to KL on Monday

family never talk much but they show their love with their action

♥

my tears make my bolster wet after this post is finished

but no worries since this is the last time I cry for him

I gonna enjoy my single life,

so beware of the new-born flirting queen :p